Monday, 28 April 2008
Anyways to the koko of this post...ehen, this facebook thing, i may have to agree with my HARD BABE tintin!..lol..... is causing me a lot of distraction, mehn i have to read jare, am going off temp as soon as we get into may, like May isn't here already!!!..lol,different tatafo work, plus the one you don't want to do self,you would sign in and if one of your friends don't put some random, status up that makes you ponder over for a while, especially when u may think it was sending an indirect message to you , they would write some funny thing on other's walls or put up pictures,or even write a note, as in facebook is full of drama or your friend called you up some days before complaining about what A did and blablabla and how they are going to either deal with them or how they won't speak to them, u know how we girls can yarn, and then the next day, they are sulking up on thier walls or they say they don't like someone and they have added them, and your tatafo skills just gets better and better everyday...lol..anyway that aside!
So i signed in today, and my friend, put up a status which said, all her friends are given seven days to pick up thier stuff from her house if they had any, that she was doing spring cleaning otherwise it would be chucked out..err ok, me i have my books, my bible and i may have some other stuffs there still, cos i had stayed at hers one time when i was homeless!...lol..anyways so facebook too is a place to send those kind of messages, ok o, thats interesting..didn't know that though!..lol..we even have a dead line date!..oga o..not a big stuvs,
Ehen i have this new attitude..not sure if its a good thing but its growing and am scared ajike may have no feelings anymore..lol, but these days when it comes to friends, am like whatever!...as in can't be bothered, i mean i care about some so much, they are very dear to me, ild call them family...... i won't say who they are, because they may be reading this, and i don't want anyone going on thier high horses..lol..anyways Ajike is now so confident it's unbelievable, i feel like i have grown up a bit more, i let some things go more than i used to and i move on quickly when it comes to "friends"..as in if they piss me off or do anything that annoys me, i let it slide and push them as far as i can...i don't even feel a thing!..like seriously, i don't even explain to them if they are not in my "you are family group"..maybe i don't give a toss anymore!..in fact too many friends is too much load for me to carry, as in can u imagine ild have to buy birthday presents for them, go for any party they are having, and spend more money, i have to borrow them money when they need...lol.am joking ooooo.....but yeah my family is fine..i mean ild call or text to say hey but mehn that's as far as it goes!!!!
Ok, people, Gosh i have exams in a bizzle...pray for me ok, i need to pass them, i know i will sha, cos i have started studying, so i may not be puting any posts up until after the exams, which would be in June!..."not like u lot are bothered"..well for information sake then..teehee!.....lol...but i won't miss visiting my sweeties to see what they have got going on sha,hope u guys week has been great so far?..has God been faithful like he has to me!..i hope he has!
Wednesday, 23 April 2008
Anyways Tj is more or less like a brother who has lived with us since i was born, like you know his parents died in a car crash and mine decided to look after him and his sisters since he was about 5,he has refused to settle down o, eventhough he has brought different women to meet us on several occassions and i mean we have really bonded with these girls only for Tj to come and say he was not interested anymore.....I mean tj played around with so many girls and am sure still does, not like he was a WOW o "pardon my english", but i dunno what they saw really, they just kept coming in and sleeping over at ours, sometimes you would hear footsteps in the early hours of the morning and then he would come and introduce them to us as his girlfriends, all these girls felt special..and then when he turned his back, we laughed at him and pushed our nose up at him..*you know the nose thing most naija peeps do"..lol...and then he would come back and say, he didn't like them anymore and that the relationship was over, tj always had a fault in them especially after they had slept over at ours...why????
....Ok so this one time, tj brought sisi home and introduced her to us , as the one 4 real, we were really pleased for him, as in this was it, tj was getting married soon, sisi seemed like a very nice lady, i mean we all loved her including ma and pa, she called me once in a while and all, and u know bonded with the family, they wore the same clothes to our family stuvs or anything sha, everyone loved sisi o...just after few months, when introduction was to be planned, sisi comes and says her mother had gone to meet some "BABA" somewhere and they said the marriage will not work.."err excuse me young lady we don't do baba here, we do the Almighty", that they are incompatible..ok the next we know it, tj too says he is not interested that sisi has a bad history and that all her escapades at uni days have been exposed..she was in a cult, she was a bad girl, bla bla bla....and then sisi starts to ring pa up saying, his son tj was owing her a lot of money she wanted back, that she had helped him in many ways..ok that one went o, pa had to pay sisi because tj refused and we didn't want any troubles!!!..that was history o
...Another Time again o, tj met omoge at his working place and apparently it was love at first sight, he again got fund of her, brought her home to the family, and every one was thinking, hmm, tj don come again o!!...but we supported still, i mean i never met omoge, but i heard so much about her, and she called me on the phone sometimes which i found weird but it was gravy, i liked her too, cos she was really sweet....it started to feel like this was the one, as in finally....he proposed to her o and then ma and pa went for the introduction, they took some stuff down to our to be inlaws and all..it was cool, wedding date was not fixed yet but it was fast approaching..and then this one time, tj was in in jand o, and introduced me to pupa, whom i thought was omoge, but unfortunately she wasn't...anyway as i opened my mouth to ask how the introduction went, tj spoke over me quickly, dragged me to the side and told me not to mention anything about the introduction, that he didn't want pupa to know about it..ahhhh...bros tj..."oga o".....tj even gave me some cheddar that day self..really don't know if it was a bribe..lol....but it was quite a lot, very unusual!!..i sha noticed tj and pupa, holding hands, giggling, doing some play play oshisco!!!...lol
b4 i knew it pupa satrted calling me too to say hello and all the inlaw runs, tj says i should find time to take pupa shopping since she didnt really know her way round..ok o, omoge too would call...it was funny mehn..i told ma about it and ma was like she wasnt even surprised cos when he was coming to jd, she had seen him off to the airport and that it was a different girl that was with him then..we laughed about it, and just felt he was messing around cos he knew he would walk down the aisle soon. The next call i got from my mum, was to hear that tj had called off the engagement, ma was furious, what an embarrassment, i mean pa had to cancel his trip for this introduction and now tj says he is not doing again..ok o tj why???
tj says ehn that a married friend of omoge told him that she had flings with the executives in the office, that she had a bad reputation, bla bla bla, and that in fact he was furious because omoge started telling the whole world that they had done introduction, he only wanted a small thing and not a big thing out of the wedding issue...ma was like tj would you shut up, what do u mean by all your rantings?...and then he is like ma if you people should force me to marry this girl "he said all this in omoge's prescence o" i would marry o, but i would just be leaving the house at every given opportunity, and she would suffer..at this point no one said a word anymore, we just left tj, and had to support innocent omoge who had been humiliated..i mean how would she go and start facing her friends telling them that her engagement had been called off...infact ma wanted to go and see the so called married friend that tj had claimed gave him these stories "that's if it was even true in the first place"....pa was so upset and embarrassed..i mean who wouldn't be?,,ma had to plead with these people o, more so we heard they were ijebu's hmmmm, lol.....it dragged but i think every one has come to terms with the fact that..it aint happening!!!!
Ma feels tj has offended some girls in the past and just maybe they have cast a spell on him, or is this normal?..lol...i mean only God knows the amount of girls he has toiled with and all....i personally think tj is confused or he really doesn't want to settle down..he still galivants with orisirisi females...lol....just thought about it recently because omoge still calls me up till now and accuses me of not even calling her...aww poor lady...i know she still likes tj for her to still pick up her fone and call me, but i can hardly do anything..
....you can force a horse to the river but you can't force it to drink water shebi!!!!
We are praying for tj sha...hopefully he would finally settle down!!!!
Sunday, 20 April 2008
....Whilst it has been a very hectic and overwhelming weekend for me and am still trying to be the best person i can, puting everything as minor, its like all my priorities are knocking at my door and all of a sudden, am thinking, Ajike you have to get up and chase your dreams..i may have been too sluggish, but it dawned on me this weekend that am sleeping too much and i need to get up!, as in i need to be Focused..yes that's the word!..Focused...don't know what exactly it was, but i think these few days of having some time alone just splattered thoughts in my mind...thoughts worth pondering over.....
I was in church today, i saw those flashy cars driven by young girls like me, i mean people around me with Gucci bags, Fendi whatever, prada whatever or u know all those things that make you go wow and don't get me wrong, these things are affordable yeah, but to be honest they are not necessities to me, they are luxuries but it won't be a bad idea to have them, as in buy them and not think OMG my account balance is reading RED!...i see these people every sunday at church, paying thier tights,worshiping God the same way i am, as in we are in this same church aren't we?........ whilst am running for the bus, they drive pass me with thier posche, Crystler, or whatever car that makes you look twice and then am thinking, my father can afford to buy me that, but i want my own , as in my very own, i want to be able to afford all these things, i want to have a very good job, i want to be very successful at what i do and love it with a passion!, i want to be independent and maybe just then i won't be bothered about friends that give me different vibes everyday...instead focus on the very ones that give me joyi personally don't think what makes a man successful in life is by what they wear, or have, or what they do that makes them popular or outstanding, its complicated, you have to be successful alround i think, in relationships with friends, the opposite sex, in every area of your life, you have to be hardworking, and focused..., well am still yet to find out what it means to be successful, but whatever it is , i am starting to chase it until i find it!!
..I may have been too sluggish on my part, i need more push, i need to be strong not weak, forgiving not recentful, submissive and not skeptical, i need to be a better person, i need to learn to follow my heart and not my mind, it's time to be that success i was made to be, and its starting from now..
Being 22, it's not a barrier, no excuses for failing my exams anymore, Acca is nothing, but exams that need to be passed, i haven't even been searching for any jobs although i get some jobs every now and then which isn't what i want to do, and yet i see some of my friends in thier third job since we left uni as in accounting jobs, i make excuses as to why they do and i don't....its crazy like that....they are not any different from me, all this crap about one thing, one person is not there for me needs to stop..as in STOP, i need to stop wanting people, instead ild let them want me..i need to stop making excuses for why things cannot be achievable, i need to finish everything it is i came to this country to do and leave, as in get out of here!..it's time to be Focused!!!
People help me out, tell me what success is?....
Tuesday, 15 April 2008
Anyway..sorry for drifting...she also had bad things said about her too, but u know she seemed strong as always, we just never connected, just like i never connected to so many others, only a miserable hello was fine..so we messaged each other today and the conversation was worthy, i mean i never knew she was an angel..which brings me to, never judge a book by its cover, she admitted as well that all we did was hate for no reason, when we didnt even know each other, but only capitalised on the nasty things we heard about ourselves, which was so wrong..i mean just the few messages and advice she gave me about holding on to God and learning to watch peoples actions and not by what they say *as in she was talking about how decietful people can be*, and a few other advice she gave me, just made me feel really bad, cos i mean i thought about it, i didnt give her a chance too, instead got carried away by what i had heard and what people around me did to such people like that!
...It's not just this girl , i have met since i left school, i have met so many of such people like this back from university days, that i just couldn't be bothered to get to know better b4 capitalising on what they had done, or people that didn't like the sight of me for no reason....i mean i have stumbled into them unaware, maybe underground, or anywhere and we have had healthy conversations and it turned out to be that they are not who i thought they were, infact ended up getting thier number after catching up on old times we never even had in the first place...shame!
..I think ild say with this, its not really a good thing, to just hate or beef someone for no reason, i mean the fact that our close friends tell us some ridiculous stories we were not witnessed to or we some how heard some nasty stories about these people does not mean we should base our judgements on that, moreover no one is perfect....am kinda happy now though that i get to bump into random people from uni days once in a while and i can try and put things right..well there is little i can do, but i mean give them that warm reception, u know, let the past be the past...everyone is growing up!..u never know, what the future holds!
Saturday, 12 April 2008
Papi is a very beautiful person both on the inside and on the outside, this isn't to say that he is perfect, i mean he has his flaws just like every human being does, but he is just on point for me, i mean it's like almost 5 years now..wow, i couldn't ask for anything more, even though i have been in doubt some few times, but we are coming out stronger.
So i cracked a joke with my friends today, i confess it was some idiotic joke that didn't even make sense at all, when i was telling it i knew along the line it was stupid but it was too late to stop, i just had to carry on blabbing....well the look in thier eyes was SHUT UP!....or more like zzzzzzzz..lol..On a normal day if i had told papi this, he would have laughed and seen where i was coming from, or if it wasn't funny he would have teased and been like hmmmmm!....you know...
I am not afraid to be me around papi, he laughs at all my jokes, both the funny ones and the dry ones, he is one that i know when i confide in , he doesn't tell me what i want to hear, but he tells me what i need to hear, he is one that i know will always be there for me even when we are not even talking to each other, he accepts me just the way i am!
5 years we have been together, used to doing things together,not used to being away from each other as in so addicted..and now he is in 9Ja, am back in Jd, hiss!..why is life so unfair!...lol...its been bearly three months since i last saw him, and it feels like forever, has he grown bigger?, is he taller?, fatter?, slimmer?..lol..no one to make regular tantraums with, or to play hide and seek with like bloody two year olds, no one to play jackie chan and jet li with!..buhahaha.
well yeah yeah yeah, we speak everyminute, but its not like actually spending some time together...arrrrgh.. i miss papi jare..pls no one should even do any love love or pda thing near me o! or else ehnnnnn!.....*sigh*. well no wahala sha, life must go on..i love booboo!..:-)
p.s have u heard this "lori le" song...i think am addicted..pls help!...or are u too?.
Thursday, 10 April 2008
....Last night i was so up set about something and then later discovered it was stupid, why was i killing myself over it, i mean why do things like this get to me in the first place, am such a softie, eventhough i think that people may think am hard on the outside, trust me, far from it. So remember i said in one of my posts that i had some facebook issues with my friends...well yeah, so it happens that one of them, lets call her "fluffy" and the one that was lovingly accusing *i use the word lovingly because she seems to be really nice to me, bless her* me about the facebook stuvs,lets call her "bubbly" are into this creation now, very good business plan. So apparently they have a site for it and u can guess they would have to advertise it too, by either sending the links to friends, or anybody sha to promote thier thingy...ok so apparently i didn't even know the other person was fluffy o, i guessed anyways from thier label "i mean what they call themselves"....that it maybe fluffy. But this could be a coincidence or maybe it wasn't intentional that everyone, i mean all my circle of friends had received a message, as in wall message about thier creation, except Me, why was i excluded again, and then it made sense, oh, fluffy was the other person, don't ask me how i know,well well, let me be honest, investigations...buhahaha!..i sound like an idiot don't I?
Well i was ticked for a while and then hissed the second minute because i realised i was killing myself again, so they don't need my support, well bubbly wouldn't mind, but i just thought maybe cos of fluffy that's why bubbly didn't bother to send me any link...meanwhile i forgot to say that fluffy has blocked me from her facebook page oo, ask me how i know all these things...well ild tell u this one, my friend allowed me use her page onetime, how come i could see fluffy, but when i logged on with mine, she was gone...hmmm, people are deep, did i tell u , i sent this girl an epistle, when the whole thing happened...lol.apologising about everything, even after she didnt reply me, i felt like a fool and regreted ever sending the apology in the first place, but the only thing that kept on reoccuring in my mind was because of God....... she never replied oo, instead she retaliated by blocking me off her facebook...buhahahahaha!
So as i was saying ooo, i got a private message from bubbly today saying why didn't i support her, aspa her creation, that she thought if not for anyone, ild support her...i replied her saying i was waiting for her to send me an invitation like she did others, and said i got her back anyday...but i thought in my mind why do i have to be secretly told, why can't i get a regular message like others on thier walls about the link...ok maybe my insticts where wrong, or maybe again its Ajike being paranoid as usual, she probably forgot to send me...come off it!...but i still got mad love for bubbly because she genuinely cares and i know she does....Look, i support them withe everything in me, they are going to make it big, i know that, just because fluffy has refused to grow up, doesn't mean ild stoop so low to her level by being resentful....I am Very happy for them, i mean its a Step forward...especially because i and fluffy had talked about business plans once in the past, so am proud of her, even though we are not friends anymore!..or the incident proved that, and am glad....more like "every dissapointment is a blessing"
You know what am starting to think that, funny enough, this whole facebook wahala with my friends, revealed a lot!...hmmm...wow am like NO regrets big time!
So i called my brother this evening and he told me mumsci sent him an email, saying she had dreamt again?...hmmm, mama ajasco, mumsci can dream!..lol....she was advising him about staying away from trouble and telling him not to fight with anybody oo, although i won't lie self, my brother is troublesome ehn, as in the boy wahala too much, but i love him just the way he is, i mean who wouldn't love thier brother...lol....so from talking and blabbing...i told him that, that was how they dreamt about me the other day and said, they saw my Ghost, that i should pray o, i was scared at first but i later laughed about it and rebuked it, he was like ahhhh, ajike we must be more prayerful o, me self these days ehn bad things happens to me, i have so many wounds all over my body,am like how come, he says ahhh different ways e'g, i was eating bone the other day and it wounded my cheek, as in blood and things!..buhahahaha!,...ok again the other day someone called my phone and threatened me, calling me a p****y, repeatedly.....even when i was doing this my project i just handed in, things kept on going wrong..hmmm....me too i started lamenting that me self, that my last sitting, i mean acca, God knows i read, i mean i have never read like that b4, i even taught my friends and encouraged them in some papers and that acca was simple *aspa i gather courage now, when my last sitting b4 this one i blast well well* but i still wondered how i failed...we kept on doing hmmm, huh, hmmm on the phone......we didnt talk about any voodoo or jazz or anything o, but from where the conversation was leading, if we had stayed too long on the phone, am sure we would have started speculating that someone was after our family!!!!
When i dropped the phone i just laughed at my self, i was like "abi o ro pe awon aiye lon she yin"..meaning, u think they are doing u guys...buhahaha!..typical Nigerians, i must be crazy..although its ok to think like that once in a while but come off it....not just like that....yeah people could be after us, but y was that my first thought...lol
Meanwhile i was telling my brother that i had relented a bit in my spiritual life..which i don't really like, i mean i never miss early morning prayers, devotions, church, worship, preaching, midweek service if i can make it, but its kind of different now, its more like a ritual now, as in i can feel it, like am not as strong, i mean i don't miss my friday fasting and all, but am always quick to sin and then am like God forgive me o...but yeah i have to do something about it, p.s, i don't joke with God o, at all but i think i need to give in my all, what i have put in now, seems not to be enough!...i don't want to give excuses for this o, but mehn people are driving me to be mean, but i refuse to be a victim!
I have so much i want to blog about but ild let them pass, cause some things are better left unsaid!..or maybe when i don't have anything to blog about, i might just blog about them!
Sunday, 6 April 2008
So i danced in church today, i mean it was a thanksgiving sunday, but it was different, i danced so much that i wasn't even bothered anyone was looking, i felt this peace within me that everything was going to be fine, it was awesome, i mean i am not faithful the whole time, but he is. You know sometimes we take for granted so many things in our lives, we think that because we are able to do certain things successfully or because we are able to pass through a day without a hiccup is because we are special..hmmm, it's not ooo, He wants it that way, that's why, its not because you are a diva......, he does whatever pleases him...for example Snow in April.......LOL
I confess am still in need of so many things in my life, like i want to pass my Acca exams and qualify by December, by his grace, i have about six papers to go, but i know he will do it, and so many other things which am looking up to God for, but he has promised, he is not a man that would lie!
I was in shambles, dissarray a couple of weeks back, but here i am standing on my two feets, as in i dey Kampe!...so happy and content, even in my inperfection...hmmmm, who dares like Him to forgive you of your sins over and over again, only Him....Regardless of who we are, he accepts us just the way we are, even humans won't do that....mehn he is all i need.
...So am thankful, thankful for everything oh Lord, sometimes i refuse to see these special things you do for me because i seek approval from men, even when you have said i should let go and let you, i have still asked if u are sure.....hmmm
Am not sure exactly which one or things in my life i am thankful for, but i am so thankful to you for being my redeemer, comforter, Jehovah Jireh, My alpha and Omega, Best friend and my everything!
I am indeed thankful!...Pheew!
Tuesday, 1 April 2008
"Can i just say that all words are not typo, this is exactly how words were spelt..trust me no mistake"
"Guest what. u've got an stablished personlity, and i liked u on your realy natural self. Which's burning my heart. I am confident also persuade of your full package. But remember all night i could nt sleep unless i was thinking if how to fashionate and survive of our best famous and respective commitment of all sort of relation with u. Pls my heart is open to an end of u, n 4 u r my kind of flava. I do like u 2 bits, and i'll take your reign, in a proportionals maners out of drama and dylemas. Just take my promise in God never let u down. Take chance, and grant me some too, so we both find the wisdon hapiness joy of living please. my darling, dont come into an ash ritual of decision but feel free n take me 4 u, so i fixe the rest 4 u remember it is a pride to any girl who finds an interesting guy on intimite. So u r my sweet one n u r blessed, chosen. of course u r a specialour to me,
SANDRA I LIKE YOU!" ...*the name i gave him*
Buhahaha, i really don't know where to start with this guy, i met the mammal on my way home one day, and he said he was from uganda "is this what they do in uganda" or maybe this is the language they speak..lol......* i don't mean to be rude o!....he asked for my number and i insisted no that i would give him if i saw him again...And yes you guessed right, i saw him again yesterday, so he thinks this must be fate....LOL
This is why i and papi always quarell cos he says i give every tom dick and harry my number, but really some people just don't get off ure case...hisss....he finally got it and has been calling me since, what kind of nonscence is this?....by the way i have stored his number as DONT PICK!...so i never have to pick them...ooops but he could do the unknown, but ild act helllo, sorry u r breaking up!...hiss!
Does anyone have the translation to this text message, because it sounds like Greek!...
Am not looking for a boyfriend, am fine with Papi, and even if i needed a replacement which am sure by God's grace i won't...i sure don't want this kind of package!!!